Over the four-day weekend I slept for 48 hours.
Nothing sounds fun, or even interesting. I am unmotivated and uninspired.
It is time to reevaluate the meds, I suppose. I am not looking forward to the chemistry expiriments until the proper cocktail is found. But, I know I want to get better.
So, even though I am kind of feeling like shit again, at least I know what is happening to me, I know why I am suddenly in such a lull. I know.
I am not crazy or lazy or worthless. I am just depressed. Again. But it isn’t nearly as bad as it was before I was undiagnosed. And I know what is happening to me. I cannot overstate what a comfort — and what a victory — that is.
I have a doctor’s appointment schedule for Thursday at 2:00 p.m. to discuss meds. I am taking care of myself.
That alone has gotten me out of bed.
A Fledgling Artemisia 
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November 30, 2010 at 9:07 AM
k8
It is a comfort to know. Hard to walk through, but knowing is half the battle.
November 30, 2010 at 9:09 AM
Alice
hugs, hugs, and more hugs. you are brave for confronting it and taking steps to fix it. xoxo
November 30, 2010 at 9:51 AM
Jess
Oh, I am so sorry you are feeling this way. But simultaneously so, so proud of you for acknowledging it and dealing with it. Good luck at your doctor’s appointment! Any chance you’ll be coming down to Denver before the holidays?
November 30, 2010 at 10:45 AM
Pickles & Dimes
I’m so sorry you’re feeling like this again, but I’m glad you recognize what’s happening and feel ready to deal with it head-on. Big hugs to you, and good luck with your doctor’s appointment. Your weather can’t be helping things either, I imagine.
BTW, we broke out those cards again you sent us for cribbage (after I “accidentally” bent our old ones Jason attributed to his winning streak) and since then, I’ve won 8 of our last 9 games! Jason is getting worried: there’s a month left of our tournament and he’s up by 41 games. So, thank you! 🙂
November 30, 2010 at 7:58 PM
penny
It is such a great revelation! Now hopefully you can begin to manage yourself gently during those times. Good luck with the meds.
November 30, 2010 at 9:51 PM
Tressa Penrod
Penny,
Thank you so much for your sweet words of encouragement! How are you? It sounds like you have a cold (I follow you on Twitter.) I do hope you are starting to feel better. My favorite tea for when I have a cold is either Throat Coat by Traditional Medicinals or the original sweet and spicy Good Earth tea. It tastes great and feels good on a sore throat.
Happy Holidays! Artemisia